Do you cry at night when you are lonely

Being teased by the boys at work.

They asked me to post a nude photo of myself on friendster.
"Now can wad. Still single."

Siao.

Are you still crying over him. Especially when you're lonely. Because you live alone. Have no one to talk to.

My reply? Eh fuck off please i'm sure you have more things to care about.
Other than my life. Or lack of it. Gogogogogogo

I think my face must have turned beet red. Gosh. But i'm not like that anymore ok! I'm happy. I'm proud to say i'm not out of love. I've accomplished alot in a week i could say. I went to the library. Borrowed a coupla books. READ THEM. I've bought a series of VCDs - a feat i thought only aunties accomplish. But i did it.

Watched half of it. Up to the point the lead Takuya Kimura declares his love for the leading lady. They're both in bed having the after sex glow not to mention good tustled hair days and he says in his most sexy raspy voice "i love you."

I LOVE YOU TOO!!!! I failed to mention that the VCDs in Japanese with Chinese subtitles. So no i don't understand a word they're saying or any plot of it. Sad.

I've resolved to take chinese lessons tho. I'd do personal tutoring. Reading and writing. Maybe when i'm more settled in at work, i'll start attending a proper school. Then make plans for my China trip. 2 years is more than enough time for me to prepare.

Soapy is happy. Because she finally found something to be happy about. And HE makes her smile. Even when she cries because she's hurting and she realises that there are alot more other things to be thankful and happy about than moping about and being constantly depressed. And she's got the best lot of people that she can talk to. Who seem to understand her feelings and give her the emotional support and strenght to pull through.