Nat's going to get pink undies in a cup

Next week an old flame from my past will come back and attempt to re-enter my life. I'm in a quandry on what to do really. It feels weird, totally weird.

After being alone for the past 2 months, I'm starting to finally get used to being alone. Yea i hated it. Facing 4 walls when i come home having to walk the dog for 1 hour everyday. But i realised if i have a man at home i'll end up having to clean up after myself and him. Not that my boyfriend's a slob particularly but aren't all men slobs.

Last night was the night of girl talk. Was on opening shift so i met ivy after. Dinner was butter prata. In Malaysia they call it roti bom. It's a prata and instead of onions/egg (insert preferred filling here) they fill it with butter and sugar. Mmmmmm yummay. So its crispy on the outside and when u break it the butter and sugar filling oozes out. Heavenly.

Ivy's bringing me for Zouks opening on friday. *sings* so happy because i have no life. heh. Its just been too long since i've been out la. Like mountain tortoise liddat. I haven't even been to Lola or Attica or any of the cool places. The coolest place i know of is my house. mine all mine that or the staff room at my work place :P

Planning Nat's bdae for Saturday lunch, bitching abt boys. I can't believe it's been 1 year since we celebrated Nat's bday at Brewerks.One year on and its only left the 3 of us very much single.

Read through some very old emails. Trying to remember what it felt like being in love him. But sometimes it feels so far away. 3 years is along time.

In 3 years i .... (in chronological order)

• got myself fucking intoxicated everyday for a month because it hurt so much
• almost got myself raped
• lost 14kgs in 2 months
• got into a useless relationship that lasted 2 years
• got flamed by his ex over the internet in her blog and calling me a bitch
• almost flunked out of my last year of school
• managed to graduate

• got a job
• dumped the useless relationship
• fell in love for the 1st time after S

• 

• flew in a plane alone for the 1st time
• went to Cambodia
• attended my bestfriend's wedding
• thought i had met the love of my life, or so it felt that way
• celebrated by 21st b'day, watched my 1st R-21 movie
• learnt the basics to Salsa

• moved in with someone
• brought someone on a holiday

• went to HK
• had my very own box of krispy kremes
• moved out on my own
• got a dog
• got myself heartbroken again

Tired. Very tired. I'd really like to know whats going on. The waiting is really killing me.