no ZoUk

Too tired for ZoUk today. Actually the real reason is because i lazy to shave my armpits and legs. Keke. I'm disgusting. Bogged by period cramps, monetary cramps as well. Can't believed i just blew 1K on my pay just to fix up new piping. If daddy doesn't reimburse me i will personally fly there to strangle him.

Craving for regular cheese Cheezels but the only ones available at 7-11 were the Pizza cheeze cheezels. Not as nice. Bleah. Snickers in officially on a new diet. She now eats unagi and seaweed canned stuff. I bought her another type of canned food as well but i just realised its one of those cans that require a can opener. Damn.

Its going to be time that i neuter her. She's pissing all over the place. Think she might be looking for a mate. What makes things worse is that she loves to chase guys. Yes. She has a thing for guys. Today on our usual late walk she chased some bloke and his friend. Smelt his arse and didn't even care to look at me when i called her. I even threatened her with "bye bye" yet she was too engrossed trying to be cute in front of other guys. Bah.

And no i didn't try to check them out.

The boyfriend is coming back in 2 days. Hehe. *Happy*

My collegues, some of my best mates are ticked by the concept of "recycled" boyfriend. In actual fact, so am i really. Our stories have always had a little romantic streak in them. But i wish we excelled more in the practical bit of it rather than in theory. Some part of me always tell me that we're just suay lah. Sometimes we just couldn't get it together.

Then again i wish i had the ability to erase the whole of this year from my head. Then perhaps he'd be truely the man of my life.

Slowly i'm begining to understand. Was talking to Weilin the other day. He was telling me how he loved his girlfriend yet not enough to marry her. Perhaps that's how he felt about me. Something told him that i wasn't the one for him. I can't change his mind or feelings about me. And i'd rather be contented with something that i have than something that i don't have. I can only count my lucky stars.