Happy new year all

New year's day has always been my favourite day. Even more than my birthday really.

I've always believed that the first day of the year will tell how you're going to live your life for the next year.
This year it was exceptionally horrible.
I spent the first few hours at work.
A place that nobody was feeling any happier ushering the new year.
The boyfriend told me he was going to meet me.
He didn't turn up for the 2nd time he said he was going to.
His idea of a good time is a good romp in bed or that's the impression he's giving me.

FUCK.

So here i am. Alone on the 1st day of the year. I dunno why but i've this stinking feeling that i'm going to be alone this year.

i need a hug.