letter to a friend

Dear S,

There'd be so many things that i'd want to tell you.
Perhaps i just didn't have the chance. And its the ones you leave behind that pay the price.

I feel angry. I feel angry because you know i'm not easy to get along with. And i have so few friends. And if one day i were to get married. I would have wanted you to fill one of those seats.
I asked you to be abit optimistic, because no matter what your life was so much better than mine.

Nobody told me that they were celebrating your birthday just last month.

I've always told you that with money that it'd attract the wrong company. Where did they go when u got into trouble. I feel sorry for her. I feel sorry for your parents who love u so much. And somehow i know if you could help it, you would have held on.

I feel angry that they had your car number on the news. I feel angry because some random fucker will go buy 4D to it.

After today i will no longer see your msn nick light up. Or you saying some random dumb thing that you'd do.

RIP