Craving for caffeine

Sleepy and thirsty for a chilled coffee.

I splurged big time on myself today. $600 smackaroos.

Not on an expensive pair of diamond earrings, branded bag or clothes. Hell I only spent $40 for my Chinese New Year outfit.

What did I splurge on?

It’s a secret. Shhh.

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Attention everyone. This is a public announcement.

I’ll be turning 22 exactly one week from today. Yes you heard it here. Shamelessly. Also the boyfriend will not be free for me. Please feel free to date me out before I feel like some old hag and that nobody loves me anymore.

panda-fied

I just discovered youtube. There’s some funny shite on that site I can tell u.


On the home front;
i feel a need to push myself to the limit.
Since everyone else is already driving me nuts
I feel I need a distraction before I sabotage my love life again

I don’t see myself as a runner.
Runners are what I define as people who turn a blind eye and just head the opposite direction when things get tough.

Weak.

I’ve been trying hard to change to make myself stronger.

And its so hard.

I have the love of a wonderful person
And yet . . . the feeling of disbelief still hangs at the back of my head.
i.am.an.idiot.sometimes.

outside carls jr

Outside Carls Jr -> Shaun product of my makeover, $3o Red's haircut, disposable contacts
Looking dashing. Any takers?

Mind the fact i'm pastey sans makeup with a dumb grin on my face

Happy new year all

New year's day has always been my favourite day. Even more than my birthday really.

I've always believed that the first day of the year will tell how you're going to live your life for the next year.
This year it was exceptionally horrible.
I spent the first few hours at work.
A place that nobody was feeling any happier ushering the new year.
The boyfriend told me he was going to meet me.
He didn't turn up for the 2nd time he said he was going to.
His idea of a good time is a good romp in bed or that's the impression he's giving me.

FUCK.

So here i am. Alone on the 1st day of the year. I dunno why but i've this stinking feeling that i'm going to be alone this year.

i need a hug.